DOWN. UP. DOWN. THEN MAYBE UP.

You know those days when you just can't get it together? Not like a locking your keys in the car kind of day. Or like a burned dinner smoke alarm becomes your evening music kind of day. More like you just woke up tired, went to work tired, and spent the day a little sad. Now I absolutely have some luxuries as a nanny, one of which is an occasional nap I can sneak in if Little S decides to sleep. I try not to really, since I feel guilty being paid to sleep. So normally I'll fold laundry, or get her lunch ready, or at least check e-mails for something productive. But not today. Because it was one of those days. So I slept and slept. And then I felt better. And the day wasn't so bad, until I remembered how much I missed C. Or how I wish my sister could hurry and come back to Lynchy, and for rehearsals to finally start to get me back on the busy grind. So enough was enough and I sat Scottie in her stroller and we walked down to our favorite cafe a few blocks down. And I had an iced vanilla latte and a cappuccino brownie, and things were good. The sun was out and we were good. 

Maybe it's being a girl, I don't know. Or maybe it's the end of summer blues mixed with a dose of real world worries. Either way that latte got me through. So here's to tomorrow... not being one of those days. Cheers.

WHEN YOU COULD DO IT ALL OVER AGAIN. FOREVER.

First off, sorry about Iphone quality photos. I never managed to bring my camera out of the room. Oops.

* SIGH*

The only way I know how to start. Also I may or may not have cried on the way home from work today because I was missing it all so much... but mostly just missing him. I love him. And his family. And it happened to be the best week I can remember. Maybe because for us, it was all-inclusive. Which meant I often had one too many mango margaritas, and those mojitos were gone like water. But even the fun in that wasn't nearly as great as just being there. No worries. No stress. Just long days doing whatever we wanted, and nights to dress up. I laughed and laughed and laughed. [One sec, there is literally a huge fly buzzing around my room and I've tried to get it out 3 times now but it won't leave. It's literally so rude and annoying. Brb gonna kill it]. [Ugh. So sick. But I got it so no worries]. 

Also, we went PARASAILING! You guys. It's such a dream. And honestly, it's as close to flying as I'll ever get. Promise me you'll do it if you get the chance? 

But you know what the best part was you guys? Even though I was curled up on the pull-out couch, saying goodnight, I knew that as soon as I woke up I got to see him. And I realized that what I look forward to more than anything, is one day never having to say goodbye. I've spent 4 1/2 years saying goodbye to him. Over 1,600 days saying goodbye to him. So I'm tired of saying goodbye. But. I'll keep saying it, in hopes that one day I finally won't have to anymore. *Insert heart-eyed emoji* *Also insert apology for the cheese ball romantics goin' on over here*.

ps. 

My put-put skills weren't half bad this time around.

pss. 

The kiddie water park had slides. And you bet I was all about that life. Everyday.

5 THINGS// AN UPDATE

As per usual. (as lame as it is) my blogging has suffered over a month's worth of silence. Worst. I know. But I'll tell you, this time it's because life is busy in a lot of good ways. Post-grad life has been treating me overwhelmingly well so far, and to be honest all of those fears of graduating and entering the "real world" have yet to spark a torch. SO, in the spirit of the best is yet to come: cheers to being 22 and a travel filled summer. Also... 5 things. 

1. Trying, as in for the first time and still struggling, to join the lipstick brigade. After watching way too many beauty youtube tutorials I did my own version of a drugstore makeup haul. I'll let you know what comes of it.

2. CLT-LAKE TILLERY-CLT-GREENVILLE-SAN FRAN-CLT-LAKE TILLERY-LYNCHBURG-LAKE TILLERY-VA BEACH- LYNCHBURG. The traveling sequence of my weekends. I've actually loved Lynchburg in the summer, I mean I've only been here two weekends, but my weekdays are spent here for work. And with roomies at the apartment, it's been 0% lonely, and actually feeling like a summer vacation. Dreams I know.

3. Leaving tonight to pack up for a week at the beach with Christian and his family. *cue the awwws* and actually *cue the applause* please because after all these years we get to family vacation togeth. And regardless of where we're going I get C for 5 days straight, so for a QT girl like me... it's Christmas. For five days. (Insert emoji with the hearts for eyes).  

4. Little Mermaid rehearsals start in about 2 weeks. Crazy. I can't wait mixed with a side of nervy. But mostly I can't wait. I haven't danced since our last show of Mary Poppins and I'm ready to be back in the studio. 

5. I just started using a PMD (!!!). I'm 2 weeks in and so far so good. I probably won't be able to see visible results until I progress to a more abrasive disk, but when I know if it's life-changing. You'll know. I'm already raving about it and I'm basically still on training wheels. 

Xoxo

THAT ONE TIME I WENT TO SAN FRAN

San Francisco was every bit as dreamy as you'd imagine. The weather was perfect, the scenery was perfect, and the adventure alongside my sister was perfect. These are just a few of the hundreds of pictures from the week. I'd go back, for sure. Traveling across the country with a baby was, to say the least, a serious show me what you're made of experience. [Oh yea, guys I went to San Fran to bring Scottie to see her Dad who is working on a long-term project out there], so it was a work trip. L oh el. But seriously, you never think about how a mom is supposed to use the bathroom when she is alone with a baby in an airport and has no where to set the baby down. You improvise. Like serious: you do what you gotta do: improvise. And the other moms you pass walking around the terminal smile at each other. It's like an unknown signal to give a, "you can do this"
 slash "I feel your pain" kind of smile to each other. All in all though, Scottie was a rockstar traveler. And I just checked "Fly cross country with a 7-month-old" off my Becoming Superwoman checklist. Holla. 

But really, if you have the chance to go, GO. Also please take a GOCar tour. It was one of the funniest and exhilarating things I've done. And who doesn't want to wear a helmet and cruise around the city with no doors or windows? 

ZOOM ZOOM

My very first adult purchase! Still dying. Thankful for my parents helping me get started, and now both exhilarated and scared to think I have car payments... not sure when I'll feel old enough for all of this. Literally you guys, I still feel like I'm only 18. Sometimes 16 on a rough day.

But isn't it just perfect!? I love it. And I'm obsessive about keeping it clean and actually treat myself to a car wash. I know. And in the back of my mind I'm still thankful for all those years driving a gas guzzling Excursion because the wait was worth it, and the high school boys thought I was b.a anyways. I worked what I had ya know?

COLLEGE GRAD

It's OFFICIAL. I'm living in the post-grad days, and it's still mostly surreal. The weekend was such a whirlwind, balancing four performances with baccalaureate, graduation, and all of my family in town but it ended up being so much fun. Graduation day felt like a dream [maybe because I was running on 4-hours of sleep], but really because you're sitting on the field with thousands of other students and just like that you're "graduated." Next to my freshman roommates and closest friends, it kind of seemed perfect. Also, not to mention the fact that I get there and my phone is blowing up with texts, tweets, and photos because my face was on the cover of the graduation magazine. Over 20,000 copies of my face, laid out on every seat. LIKE COULD YOU DIE? I mean if you know me you know that whether I knew it or not this was probably one of the best things that ever happened to me LOL. It was half the weirdest most bizarre feeling and the most exciting thing. The stares were for real. And I laugh thinking about it because I couldn't have imagined up something like this. My one day of fame. And you know I'll be telling my grandchildren when they ask about the magazine framed on the wall. Ok I'm kidding, it won't be on the wall. I'll put it over the fireplace.


 Cheers to the Class of 2014! 

FRIDAY FAVE

Scottie and I have daily dance sessions. This day was particularly adorable. Just wait until the last second. 

Also, Christian's parents are here today!!! They drove in to see the show tonight, and I'm so so excited. 

Also ALSO, the fall Alluvion Stage Company show this fall is LITTLE MERMAID *cue the squeals and giggles*. My audition was last night and callbacks are this weekend, sooooo... exciting news to follow.